If you could go back and change things about your life, what would you change? Would you have a different career? Pick a different family? Would you be married by now? A lot to consider.
God took me on a deeper journey in the latter part of 2019. He wanted me to come closer to Him. He wanted me to shed the things of my past. Things I didn’t realize I was still holding on in my life. The lies I believed as a child. The labels placed on me, despite being disguised as “jokes,” left scars.
I wish I could tell you I was the perfect student in these intense lessons with God. I wasn’t. I was stubborn. I wanted things to happen in my way and in my timing. In my singleness journey, I thought for sure marriage would have happened already, but it didn’t. Despite my doubts and insecurities, the Word of God was deep enough for me to realize I have to trust Him.
Honestly, I had asked for this. I asked God to change me. I wanted to go from my will to His will, not realizing that caused withdrawals from my flesh. Never forget your flesh and spirit are at war, and always will be until Jesus rids us of sin once and for all. It’s difficult saying, “Not my will, God, but yours.” I wish I had more say so sometimes, but I know it wouldn’t be good.
God knows when we’re ready for things. You’re probably reading this as a single thinking, “I’ve been ready for years. Why isn’t God answering me? Why everyone else?” I don’t have the answer, but what I can tell you is, He is never late!
In 2009, after a year and a half relationship, I left heartbroken. Disappointed. Scarred, but I begged God to help me forgive my ex. I remember praying on my knees, “God help me forgive him because I don’t want to be bitter.” Now that I’m on the other side of the pain, I can honestly say that the relationship wasn’t a kingdom one. After a year and a half, while we went to church together, I didn’t see any evidence of God working in his life. Infatuation and the idea of being with someone blinded me, so thank God, it didn’t work out.
As I’ve discovered my calling over the years, that relationship would have slowed me down. He wouldn’t have understood what God put inside me. He probably would have gone along with it, but not for long. I don’t know about you, but I don’t want someone just to “go along” with my calling. I want him to help me with it!
God’s will doesn’t always make sense. Sometimes there’s loss in this life. Heartbreak. Offense. Yet God knows how to turn things around in our favor. The phrase that comes to mind is, “the game’s rigged for you to win.” It may feel as if you’re losing now, but feelings are fleeting. Stand on what you know!
God’s faithful to His Word. He’s faithful to His promises, and He’s faithful to us. His children.
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Written by Daria White Osah
You can find Daria Here:
Devotional https://www.amazon.com/Dear-Younger-Me-Devotional-Personal-ebook/dp/B09QRKBRGB/
Her podcast Single Plus https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/singleplus
& on Instagram @mysingleplus
