I’ll be honest. I’ve been in an uncertain season since the summer. All the plans I’ve had have seemed to fall through. Nothing works, no matter how many times I pivot and return to the drawing board. It’s been agitating. Stressful. Wearisome.
Half the time I don’t know what to do. There’s no way I can keep going like this, and yet, there is a new peace I’ve never had. God led me to two things.
The first was a sermon by Pastor Sarah Jakes Roberts. If you’ve never heard her preach, prepare yourself. Her passion for God is clear, and she preaches with His fire. Her latest sermon “Rise, Slay, Eat” or “Release to Rise,” I’ve watched at least four times and counting. One thing I remember her saying was, “God is going to coach you through it.”
That moved me, as I don’t know what to do, but God’s coaching me. I’m learning as I go. If you know me, that’s not my personality. I wasn’t born with the spontaneity gene. I’m a planner. I like to know in advance so I can prepare. Not always the case with God, and He shakes things up on me in seasons of uncertainty. I’m learning how to hold to His hand. There’s even a hymn with the same title, “Hold to His Hand.”
On top of the sermon, He led me to Psalm 121. Most Christians know the beginning. “My help comes from the Lord” or “He never sleeps or slumbers.” Yet, this was my first time in a while reading the rest of the psalm. The verse that stood out was verse 5, “The Lord is your keeper; the Lord is your shade on your right hand (ESV).”
The Lord is your shade on your right hand? I asked Holy Spirit what that meant. For a visual, I even held out my right hand. Then I heard this revelation in my spirit. In order for shade to cover my hand, there has to be something over me or close by. God is saying, “I’m covering you!”
I don’t know what you’re facing in this season. It doesn’t always have to be relationship related either. It could be business trouble, family drama, battles with children, or it could be loneliness in singleness. What I can tell you is the Lord is covering you!
If I had to give an example of how I feel in times like these, I compare it to water rising around me. It’s easing past my legs and closer to my waist. I know God won’t let me drown, but I get anxious when the water is past my shoulders and closer to my neck and nose. What do you do when you feel God is “cutting it close?” You know He’s coming, but you feel you’re barely hanging on by a thread. What do you do?
Another thought came to mind in this season. I think a post on social media inspired this, but the basis was, “instead of telling your problems to God, tell your problems about what your God can do!” This doesn’t mean you can’t feel. I’m all for acknowledging pain and being real, but when it lingers, that’s the issue. When your doubt takes over, that’s a problem. When you question who God is overall, that’s a problem.
I know. None of this is easy. This takes maturing in the faith. This takes growing pains in the spirit, but He won’t let you drown. The waters can only come so far before He pushes them back or pulls you out! Or He’s teaching you how to swim! Regardless, I can’t think of a time when God didn’t come through for me, even if I thought He was cutting it close. When you feel it is last minute, it’s perfect timing for Him.
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Written by Daria White Osah
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